June has been a month of struggle for me, but luckily, I have a great team of people helping me on this journey. Debbie Pepper-Dougherty reminded me that obesity is a chronic disease and that it won't be "cured" quickly; it is best to look over each day and think about how the choices I made could be improved even further. Sally said that as I dive into facing the fears that have held me back from taking care of myself in the past, the journey may slow down and plateau. I need to be patient and not think that I'm a failure if I don't lose weight for a week or two. Espahbad seemed thrilled when I told him, "I've fallen off the weight loss wagon! I feel horrible!" He laughed, listened, and then wisely said, "Oh, good! You've gotten into the (bad stuff) and you're dealing with it. That's good!" Let me tell you, it didn't feel good at the time. ;)
My subsequent hypnosis sessions have been good, but the one yesterday was probably the most powerful. I feel rejuvenated and able to handle anything. Cindy and I walked at the Runnals Trails at Colby today and it was great to huff and puff my way up the hills and then enjoy the serenity of the pine needle-covered trails under the trees. Sophie and Coolidge sniffed, played, and trotted along with us, reminding me that movement brings happiness and contentment. I surprise myself when I'm able to walk on trails for an hour or more. This is progress.
Last time I checked my weight, it was 267, but that was last week. I see Debbie on Tuesday and so I will hold off from weighing in anywhere until then. I want to walk at least twice more and hope that the exercise, paired with my good eating habits, will bring about more success. I'm looking forward to being below 260, a place I haven't been since I was in my early 30s. I would love to be around 230 before school starts. Wow! Just imagine. :)
